Subject: So i'm bisexual.....
Content: Nice. I guess ive always "known", and at one time (20-21) I started to face my attraction towards both sexes. I lived in florida at the time, went to all the raves.... did all the hard drugs (fun) and ended up going away for a few years because of my drug habits.
I though once I was clean that the "fog" would clear and I would not be so confused, lost as to my own identity and sexuality.
WRONG.
I have been able to push it into the back of my mind, not act on what I once felt so strongly. Know what? It's back....and it's pissed.
Let me explain; My g/f recently talked me into going to a "gay" club. Hell, with no rave culture here in Oklahoma it's the only place that plays my favorite types of music, techno & trance.
Being around attractive BI guys and girls awakened something in me I thought was long dead....a faze from the past that was the direct result of too many drugs. Minimize it all I like, but what I felt then, and feel now is real...and once again, at 29 I must deal with it.
Ive only came out to 2 people in my life. My parents, friends and old lovers would NEVER believe I was Bi...no way. I'm that attractive guy that simply loves the leg, you know?
I'm soo torn. I'm old enough now to "know" that personal happiness is dependant on self-honesty above all. I, like anyone, want to be happy, but I feel more than a little silly just now dealing with this at 29. My g/f, who is also Bi, doesn't know... not that she would judge me for it... I know it will be quiet the opposite, she will be supportive like I need her to be. Least until I want to be with someone of the same sex.
Has anyone else gone through this at the same age as I? I guess I need, for some odd reason, assurance that I am not the first to wait till im 30 to deal with this.....
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